so, I had a moment of calm come over me yesterday, and it told me I don't need to worry anymore about work. this does not mean that I had some sort of esp where I foresaw my future and in the future I had a job, it just made me feel comfortable with not having a job, just for a moment. of course there are economic reasons to have a job, but more important sometimes are the psychological reasons, self-worth, identity, etc. I did not feel worthless in that moment and I did not feel without purpose for a change. hmmmm. cookies.